Mental Agony

when I lay down at night after a long days plight
Hoping to see the light of peace and harmony but my thoughts still only bring harm to me.

I deal with it all day and at night I'm just wishing it would go away
even a second from my own mind would be okay.

That moment of peace never really comes

but that's all right because I'm not ready to give up the fight,
If I did then it wouldn't prove a thing.
No matter how many times suicide crosses my mind it will never convince me.

I'll keep searching for the rest of my life for the thing that will end my internal strife.

Should it never be found at least I can say that I stuck around.