thoughts inside the storm&the aftermath

the thoughts inside the storm

I can’t be okay.
I can’t succeed.
I can’t laugh and smile.
I can’t make the people around me happy.

I’m too fat.
I’m too clingy.
I’m too talkative.
I’m too ugly.

I disappoint everyone around me.
I need to stop annoying them.
I should be more like an adult.
I’m not going to get into that school.

I’m going to fail this test.
I’m going to embarrass myself.
I’m going to mess up.
I’m going to get made fun of.


Everyones laughing at me.
Everyone hates me.
Everyone is sick of me.
Everyone wants me to leave.

I should walk away.
Everything is going to crap.
No one loves me.
I don’t love me.

I shouldn’t love me.
No one should love me.
My parents are going to give up on me.
I am a lost cause.

The aftermath thoughts

I will be okay.
I will succeed.
I will laugh and smile.
I will make the people around me happy.

I’m not fat.
I’m not too clingy.
I’m not too talkative.
I’m not ugly.

I don’t disappoint anyone.
They love it when i speak my mind.
I’m growing up, it’s okay for me to make mistakes.
I’m going to do whatever it takes for me to get into that school.

I’m going to ace this test.
I’m going to laugh if i embarrass myself.
I’m going to mess up, but thats okay.
I’m not going to get made fun of.

No one is laughing at me
No one hates me.
No one is sick of me.
Everyone wants me to stay.

I shouldn’t walk away.
Nothing is going bad in my life right now.
Every person in my life loves me.
I should love me.

I’m good looking.
My hair is always on point.
I have beautiful eyes.
I have a good body.

I’m nice.
I’m funny.
I’m powerful.
I’m strong.

I survived the storm.
There will be another one.
But thats okay.
Because i’ll survive that one too.