a poetry entry for NEWBIES ONLY (september 2k19) |
marlboro cigarettes. i'm always polite. i hold doors open for people, i say please and thank you. i keep most thoughts to myself, and don't cry in front of people, and that's almost all the time. i smoke marlboro cigarettes. i get them from friends, who have friends of friends, whose brother is 18 and jobless. i stand on street corners and feel the sting in my lungs just to block out the sting in my chest. i smoke marlboro cigarettes. and i hate that you stopped saying, you love me because i say it, all the time. and the time i don't spend smoking, is more time i spend, thinking about you. i smoke marlboro cigarettes. you were so pissed, when i told you. the things i wasted my time on. to keep my knees from bouncing, to keep my breathing steady, to keep my heart from pounding. i smoke marlboro cigarettes. the things you say, you're angry. so mad that you're mad. "you'll ruin your lungs" they're pretty boxes, of flowers. i smoke marlboro cigarettes and it's so selfish, of you, your anger. but you just love when i sing, and speak pretty things, for you. and i guess you love me, that's why you care, when i smoke, marlboro cigarettes. -aileene_ |