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The new girl just looking to fit in somewhere. The new girl is me. |
Just a lost girl, looking to fit in. I’ve moved from place to place, But i’m still just a stray kitten. People look at me with hate in their eyes. I use my greatest weapon to hide my tears. That weapon is a smile. When they aren’t looking, I delve deep into my fears Realizing the harsh truth I am alone and have no one but myself to turn to. I try communicating with others Sharing my ideas Yet everyone seems to run away Never looking back. I put myself out there Arranging plans with acquaintances Hoping they’ll accept me and bring with them others. Time passes and I realize I’ve been abandoned. My fears consume me, altering my reality. I often ask myself why do others turn away from me. Why am I rejected and pushed off to the side. What did I do wrong that puts me in this position? I may be different than others and may not be in the now But I am still a caring person and put others before me. So why must I be off on the sidelines, Observing others, while they are fulfilling their dreams? I wait for someone to welcome me with open arms, Allowing me to join their club. Days turn into weeks Weeks turn into months Months turn into years No one has welcomed me With each day that passes, I delve deeper into obscurity My walls become progressively impenetrable, Because the world keeps me locked away My smiles begin to diminish My hate towards the world flourishes The last bit of hope I contain disintegrates Just a girl looking to fit in Just a girl who has drifted into deep sleep. Just a girl who never knew happiness. Just a girl. |