My Fears

My Fears

Getting left behind
Not being loved
No one understanding
No one caring
Are my fears

I had a dream
I was lost
No one tried to
find me
No one cared
No one listened
understood

Feeling left out
Feeling like no one
understands
Feeling like no one
can hear me
When I'm screaming
to be heard
Destructive behaviour
I have

Wishing I could change
Wishing I could make it
better
Wishing for another chance
Wishing for someone who
will come and save me
from myself.

my fears
not being heard
being left behind
not being understood
no one caring.

how can I
disappear
make people
understand.

Disappear from
this world
Show people what
It's like to
worry, misunderstand
not care.

my fears,
people laugh
people tease
people misjudge
people misunderstand
me.
Behind my back,
they laugh,
Tease, hurt,
So I can't see them.
It hurts.

Now,
I hide this
pain
in my heart
making sure
No one sees
My hurt,
Pretending to be
someone
I'm not.

Trying so hard
to fit in
to cover the
scars, trying
so hard,
to be liked
by you.

My feelings
disappearing
No regrets
Hoping no one
resents me.

After my dream
ended
I wondered...
What am I leaving...
When I leave here?

The pain
I've caused the hurt
the disappointments
The worries

Hoping, now
people understand
people miss
people hear me
and others
Forgetting all,
all the pain, and hurt
I learned to hide
inside
buried deep in
my heart. No way
out

My fears...are these.