Chapter
2 "A" is for Alfred the Abstract Artist
Alfred
had never fancied himself as an artist. In fact, other than the
doodles he once engaged in on his papers in school, he had never
seriously put paint on canvas or any other medium that would permit
an artist to create. And yet, he had a certain imaginative flair he
discovered over time, that no one else ever observed, never being
privy to the inner workings of Alfred's mind.
When
given an opportunity, however, on vacations, in cities, or wherever,
Alfred drew himself to venues that exhibited art works. He
methodically perused the displayed works and found that with
practice, he could close his eyes and reproduce the art work exactly.
He found it mesmerizing to do so and often sat in his rocker with
his eyes tightly shut. To the casual observer, Alfred was sleeping.
But that was not the case at all. Alfred was revisiting the art he
had absorbed for decades. It was a most austere collection that
rivaled any other museum of art.
There
were two categories that intrigued him. These he would revisit
frequently as he considered the incredible artistic skill required to
produce them. One type of painting he never grew tired of looking at
was the portraits of people whose eyes followed you as you crossed
the room. Somehow the artist had discovered a technique that allowed
the observer to conclude the eyes of the personage in the artwork
were always upon the observer. These people seemed realer than real.
The
first time Alfred came across such a work of art, he couldn't tear
himself away. He crossed the gallery time and again, his own eyes
never leaving the eyes in the painting. Finally, the guards in the
gallery had to turn out the lights and escort Alfred from the
building to get him to leave. It was then that Alfred discovered
that he only had to shut his own eyes to continue to enjoy the
painting anew.
The
second group of paintings that Alfred enjoyed were those painted so
realistically that one had to touch the artwork to make sure it was
art and not just a display of the actual objects depicted. Looking
at this art, it was possible to tell it wasn't a photograph. The
artist made it look more real than even a photograph could display.
Touching it was the only way to know. And that was what Alfred did
the first time he saw such an artwork. And because he wanted to
touch the art, the guards escorted him from the gallery.
To
his great relief, Alfred discovered that he could remember these
works and recreate them in his mind in minute detail. Sometimes he
entertained creating works of art, but decided instead that just
enjoying them at will was enough. This exercise brought to Alfred
one of his greatest discoveries that allowed him to always relax
regardless of circumstance.
He
discovered that there was no difference between the physical
"reality" that one witnessed with the senses, and the
mental "reality" that one created with the eyes closed.
Either would suffice, and depending on individual needs, one might
prove to be more engaging than the other. It was not always possible
to be at an art gallery to observe the works of art. Therefore, the
mental gallery that one could build was far superior to the physical
one.
And
as Alfred sat in his rocker and contemplated the heavens and all they
contained, he found occasionally he could almost "see" an
alien ship ready to descend on him. He only had to close his eyes
and witness the ship as the Aliens considered if Alfred was ready for
the voyage. That was the key factor, Alfred convinced himself, that
would determine when the Aliens would come for him. His readiness
was pivotal.
On
the particular warm June evening in question, when Alfred first
witnessed the waviness of the heavens in an uncharted piece of the
Universe, Alfred closed his eyes to see more clearly what he was
being shown. He focused on the movement and held each phase in mind
while witnessing the next variation. This had a layering effect akin
to applying successive layers of paint to a canvas.
The
result had no visible relationship to each of the applied layers and
yet without each one, the end would be not be discernible as reality.
And so, Alfred "painted" the sky in all its magnitude and
the image he produced made him open his eyes, startled by what he was
being shown. It was unbelievable, so much so he slowly shook his
head and turned away unable to grasp the reality he felt the Aliens
were sending to him.
The
rumbling in his gut had magnified, and he went to the barn and get a
small glass of Peppermint Schnapps to settle the discomfort. It was
infrequent that he resorted to the Schnapps, but he knew peppermint
had a medicinal effect on the stomach and the warmth he felt whenever
he imbibed was soothing. Obviously, he kept the Schnapps in the barn
so that Gertrude would not deplete his small stash.
When
he returned to the porch and his rocker, he closed his eyes to
recreate the startling image that had been forming. However, it
didn't come. The image with his eyes closed was fuzzy, almost as
fuzzy as the "real" sky he saw with his eyes open.
Disappointed and frustrated, Alfred sat and rocked and let his
watering eyes blur the scene before him even more. And then softly,
ever so softly, he let his eyes close and pleasantly drifted into a
real slumber and not the pretend slumber he so often displayed.
In
a sweet dream, the image of the heavens once again took form, but
this time Alfred would not recall the image, because he had always
had trouble remembering details of dreams. He knew he dreamed,
fairly often he dreamed, and in each dream, he would vow to remember
each of the details when he awoke, only to wake and remember only
that he wanted to remember the dream. And this time would be no
different.
Alfred
would once again disappoint the Aliens, showing them he wasn't ready
for their descent. There were skills yet to master before he was
ready. He had come far, very far, but not far enough, yet. The
image that Alfred could reconstruct was incomplete. He thought he
saw a path, perhaps a hallway, perhaps a bridge, and to the sides of
the way, there were openings, perhaps windows, perhaps doorways, and
bits of light shown from the other side of the opening, and yet
because there was nothing solid like a wall, it was hard to tell if
the light was shining from outside in or from inside out. And then
everything got fuzzy again and Alfred didn't receive the complete
message of the Aliens.
When
Alfred awoke in his rocker, he had a headache, but a settled stomach.
No more rumbling and he realized that he had spent the night on the
porch. Gertrude had left him there, or perhaps she had tried to wake
him and he didn't respond. Another night had passed, and he was
still on the porch and not in an Alien ship on a voyage across the
Universe.
Alfred
decided that on this particular day he would not think of Aliens or
the Universe at all. He would not try to imagine anything, but
would do his chores, whatever was before him to get done, attacking
the list that Gertrude was harping at him to complete. He couldn't
remember what exactly was on the list, but he knew that she had one
and that he was responsible for completing the tasks it contained.
This day Gertrude would see a new Alfred. But first he would go to
the barn and gather the tools, supplies and most of all, the energy
to become a new Alfred.
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