Nightmare.

On my way to school... young as can be ... thinking to my self what a lovely day this gone be.. Breakfast in my tummy, Yass im all full, Im bout ready to skip my tail to school. Day goes by.. per usual day. get this weird feeling in my stomach. and this ish aint normal ehhh.. The call me to the office. hands sweaty asf. I dont know whats goin on rn but I must find out before I bust. throw up alll this good ol food my mama made. This walk seems forever . I really dont understand why.... Legs start to shake. I really need to throw up. Idk wtf happening to me ,Omg Aundria I think ,to myself " grow up" I finally make it to the office door. I open it slow ... Next thing ya know its my Principal at the doooo" I start thinking about all the bad shit ive done at school, nothing pops up except skipping out n homework which cant be to bad . I start to get mad because nobody saying shit. I just wanna be like FUCKIN SPIT it OUT SHIT. All she tells me dont worry your just getting picked up from school early. your mom called. I jump for joy . Im happy asf, This the best day of my life.. Ive got that GOODLUCK. Little do I know I got a long road ahead of me.. with the news Im about to get and I remember this damn day rn Every little bit of it. I get in the car. mama pickin me up in her lil bucket. Its silence no music no nada, just me and my bad lil brother! she tells me grandma is sick and we have to rush to the hospital... Im not thinking to much of it. " oh its prob just a little ol cold.. but I notice the way my mom turns around and looks at me ... with her eyes soo bold. this wasnt No, way it cant be just a lil ol cold! We get to the hospital. my mom flies out the car... I couldnt even say hey wait for me... I wait in the car for her return and just knew today was gonna be the not so best day of my life. Im sitting in the car. I hear a loud scream. I thought to myself cant be my mama naw it cant be. sound like someone who soul got ripped out they chest, I knew in my heart it was my mama but I prayed to god it wasnt. it cant be .. grandma just gotta cold thats all I kept saying. Lord heard me praying ... well at least I thought he did.. I dint quite understand true pain.. but that day I definitely felt it.


She was gone .. I didnt get to say byee. we were alone .. why she have to go. why take away the people who love you the most. Why cant she come back, what did we do wrong. this like the ending to a very sad song. I was young but I didnt understand much.. but I knew after this day... my life was about to change so much.