You take me for granted!

You take me for granted and I am so tired.
I am so tired of you lying to me.
So tired of you using me.
So tired of you abusing me.
I just sometimes want to choke you out.
Lord Jesus help me to have better thoughts.
I get tired of you hurting those you say you love.
You have your son in tears.
You have your mom in tears.
You have me in tears.
You say don't give up on me please I promise I'll do better.
You say pray for me often and never stop.
You say I am going to get it together but then you don't.
I need to see some proof on your part.
I need some proof that you are going to do what you say you are going to do.
Giving up on you would feel like it's killing me because I love you dearly.
I just need the Lord's strength to keep me going.
I will be praying for us both.
Please help us both Lord we need thee so much!