The Hallway

INTRODUCTION

My breath was heavy and unstable. My legs felt like jelly for a moment and the next moment they felt like uncooked noodles that could break anytime. I found myself running. Not from something, but down a hallway. A long hallway that seemed to be endless but deep inside I knew that there is an ending that is not visible yet.

There were doors on either side of the hallway but I was yet to reach them. I wanted to stop and take rest because I could see that the doors were still at a distance, but every time I would try to do so, a voice in me would whisper "Be afraid to stop. That is the No.1 rule. You are running because you have a reason. If stopping was what to be done, you would have done it long ago. Keep going". At first I thought I didn't know why I was running but then I realized that I want to reach the doors.

After a few minutes of running I could see the doors but they were still a few meters away which gave me time to observe them a little. I saw that the doors seemed to be never-ending as well. They stretched across the hallway till as far as I can see. And each door had a design which was unique in its own way. They were all of different colors. All of them attracting me.

Chapter 1: The White Door

The first door was on my left. It was white in color. No, actually it was whiter than white. Then I looked down at my feet and I saw that I was no more running. I was walking now, but I could sense weariness taking over me.

The door had a beautiful carving of a beautiful lady with perfectly white skin. Not a spot on her body. But I couldn't stop there to admire more as not stopping was the No.1 rule. I don't know who has made the rules. I didn't even know that there were supposed to be rules because I don't remember anyone handing me the rulebook and that's strange because as far as I can see back in time, I have always been running. I just gave a gentle push to the door and it swung open effortlessly. I stepped inside and the door closed behind me. But I didn't try to open the door again because I had a strong intuition that it would open on it's own at the right time.

There laid a big bright room behind the white door. The room seemed whiter than white as well. It had flawless walls and was too perfect to be true. I wanted to stop and adore the room but my feet didn't allow me. It almost appeared as if these legs were attached to my body but are being controlled by someone or something else but for some reason I didn't want to rebel, at least not now.

I couldn't fight the urge to to touch those flawlessly, perfectly white walls and even before I realized, my fingertips were tracing the walls gently. Nothing in the world could be that perfect and so, I was afraid that if I hurried them it would disappear and I'd be back in the hallway.

To remind you my feet didn't halt. My feet were still moving along the walls with my one hand on the wall inspecting for a crack or a flaw, because I still couldn't believe that something could be so remarkably, unbelievably and divinely perfect......And then I noticed my hand which was still placed on the wall.....My hand looked so dark against the wall.... I do agree that I am not that fair but I am fair enough. My long fingers and nails looked ridiculous whit the wall in the background. And that was the first time I had noticed my flaws.

I felt really inferior in this perfect room. The human instinct; I wanted to stop walking and compare a little more but I couldn't break the No.1 rule. Without having any intentions to do so, I suddenly recalled all the scars that I have on my body. Now the weariness had taken over and at the same time my insecurities kicked in. I didn't want to be there anymore. Looks like my prayers were heard . The door flung open and I rushed out of the room and in no time I was back in the hallway.

Even though I had escaped the perfect room, I couldn't get over everything that happened inside. And looks like insecurities have found a comfortable place inside me and had no intentions to leave. At least not anytime soon....






This is something that my younger self wrote and I would really appreciate it if you left a review telling me if I should post the next part or stop it here. Feel free to correct me and leave a suggestion. Thank you so much for reading .