I can't Sleep 151 words.

I can’t sleep. I don’t dare to close my eyes and I’m so tired. I have this recurring nightmare. I’ve had it for days now and it is really scaring me. I don’t know which is worse, waking up from the nightmare, or staying awake.

When I fall asleep I start out having my normal dreams. Everything is good and normal. Then the clouds move in and everything is confusing and feels frantic.

My husband, my best friend, has passed. The pain in my body is so intense I think it’s me who is dying. I am parilyzed with fear; confusion; dread.

And then I wake up safe and warm in my bed. For a split second all is well in the world. Then reality smacks me in the face. I am alone. The bed is cold. There was no nightmare.

I’m so tired, but I can’t sleep.