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Emotional reveal of feelings quickly regretted |
It was the first in a while, that my emotions had gone to this A crush, an extra layer of feelings for someone That giddy, light feeling that someone is special to you The desire to be near that person, to talk to them, to be closer than a friend When this happens, your logic melts Even when this is a time when you need it most My recent crush did not end well It wasn't even mine at first, it developed after a for-the-heck-of-it relationship began, then when it ended, I was the one hurt, the one that was left crying because I loved them in a way they didn't, couldn't, return Which meant this time, I took any possible sign that my affections were returned, and ran with it And that, was a mistake The revealing of my feelings left me wishing I'd remained silent, cursing myself for rushing things, even after I have said I wouldn't Now I feel strange talking to a friend I have had for a decade, someone I had just reconnected with Maybe I am still being too rash in believing it will never be the same This has happened before, I told my friend I loved them, the feelings were Unreciprocated, and life went on We remained friends, and we remain friends until this day But for now, I'm left with a regret That I have ruined things, let myself down another time by having hope For someone to love me back |