Crimes of the Heart

As you lie in the hospital bed withered and weak
It becomes apparent our time together has just about peaked.
I mask my sorrow, attempting to remain strong
But the thought of your death pierces me like a two-ton prong.
I know you would say that I was acting a fool
“It's just part of God's plan, so please, try to stay cool.”
How can I be expected to just grin and bear?
Especially since I've had to watch you lose every inch of your hair.
My constant cynicism, for which I will try to refrain
But it's difficult to do, as I watch the disease attack your brain.
Your sanity is slipping, the pain is becoming too much
Your body quivers and thrashes, from one single touch.
You grab my hand, staring at me with those beautiful doe eyes
And beg me to end your suffering, for which I'm surprised.
With God in your heart, I never knew suicide would be an answer
But I will do it for you, if means it'll kill the cancer.
I tell you to lie back, just close your eyes
And I will do my best to kindly oblige.
Tears seep out, as I kiss your face
The realization hitting me: our love is about to be erased.
Your eyes remain closed, your body beginning to twitch
As I tell you I love you, before finally turning the switch.