Who I Am

I am a daughter
A friend
A sister
A fighter
An overcomer

I define myself through my writing and the things I do
My identity is not with my looks or my past mistakes
But with how I approach them and change

I have a learning disability
It does not label me
Or stop me from doing the things I love
I was supported by my parents to grow
Doctors told my parents I would never accomplish anything
And here I am writing to you

I have been bullied and disliked by my peers
I have never had many friends because most thought I was strange
I have never been good with talking to others
And do not trust people easily
Nor do I make deep friendships easily

I have gone through depression and loneliness
And lost motivation where I used to thrive
I lost my family that I loved dearly
My sisters rebelled, my brother became a tyrant,
And my parents love for me was conditional
I lost the clear path I knew that my parents had controlled
And I depended on others and their opinions over mine
I agreed and never decided on what I truly believed and wanted to do
I have gone through life smiling and trying to do school on my own
I already felt like a burden but did not know how to fix me
I felt hollow inside when people always asked how I was so happy all the time
At times I was but there were moments I held my tongue around people who spoke badly of me
There were times I wanted to end everything

But this does not define me...

When truly I am sassy and spontaneous
I get excited over the small things in life
I like to look at the world with optimism and with open eyes to see what it could be
Writing helps me to better express myself
I love nature, it gives me a sense of peace when I am outside
My imagination runs wild, and I am always deep inside my head
When I try to be funny the crickets can be heard in the silence
I am only funny on accident, and no one ever seems to forget those moments
I am not in any sense smart, but I work hard
I am not perfect and nowhere close to it
But I continue through life learning and growing