Recollecting an experience from when I was a teenager |
between the house and the casino there's a long stretch of 56, all pastures, fields, and old barns, here and there some homes, seemingly half-abandoned in the bush. I always wondered who lived there, so far from anything. it seemed so wonderful, so easy to be forgotten. i would glance through their dusty windows as we went by, seeing nothing but reflections and glares; just imagining rooms full of motheaten furniture, old drapes fluttering in a phantom breeze, beds, unused for who knows how long, covered in threadbare sheets, antiques, old leather-bound books brimming with some beautiful lost language; fancy handcrafted things from some bygone time, all ornate and drenched in the austere light of a perpetual evening. the road began to rise and as we crested the hill we emerged into an explosion of sunlight. just then dad let the windows down a bellowing of warm spring air filled the car. beside the empty road was an old chapel hidden at the end of a narrow dirt path crouching in a field of wildflowers. "hey dad," i spoke up, "wasn't that place on tv once?" he glanced over as we passed. "yeah, i think so. "someone famous got married there, "or something." "you remember who it was?" i asked. he shook his head, "who knows?" somewhere on that road, or in the fields, was a metaphor for the distance between us. i remember having some thought to this end. then for a time, i wondered if that's what poetry was. i wondered if we could drive on the sunrays up into the light, and instead of immolating we would somehow end up somewhere beautiful full of light and truth. there was a place where everything made sense. and though the road stayed flat, somewhere in the rushing wind in the warmth that kissed my sun-dappled arm as it lay out the window, i felt a promise. |