"puppet"

you were always by my side
it always comes as a surprise
you rape me of my body and my mind
they are no longer mine
a puppet, a clown
in my plastic tears i drown

my cuts and bruises are ordinary
a gun to my head, we shall marry!

what do you see in me?
a pig in mud,
in my own filth i sleep

you caress me lightly
hold my hand so tightly
you wash me with water and soap
and cleanse my blood, i hope
a dirty knife you hold, sharp and old
no mistake, to me you told
slice off my bones, rotten meat
sharpened, smooth and neat
while i purge out blood
intestines infected with mud
and you never fail to tell me
i will always be disgusting, horrible, unclean

you shut my eyes
shut out desire
i hold you close,
a foul smell under your nose

great walls surround me
never to be broken down
a jail cell, iron bars and nothing to eat
again and again, you shove me around
in circles, i am bound to repeat
i am scum, you gradually bury me
deep under the ground
i am low, you kindly hold me,
my head under water, i sink and drown
i am but a prisoner, metal and rope
hold my hands together, i am confined
i am but an insect,
horrible a sight
i am but a suspect,
to say guilty and deplorable,
one might.