search for forgiveness

l have an advantage in lif that confusesvery manysimply put i was abusedby mfather who dumped by the road and drovespent years in an orphonagehavexperienced survival conditions most cant even imaginei walkedout of russia across siberiaspenime living off the land in africaaswell asmy marine training so for me when things get rough i just remember when things wre worse and that survived then and will nowthe most difficulthing i have had to is learn to forgivebecause to me forgiveness was something you talk about when you visit them in the hospitalthats justhe way my father raised mei tried and tried' i prayed and meditatedoverthe facthathe 23 psalm has you asking to be forgiven like you forgiveotherssomething i wasnt doing so was i asking to not be forgiventhe break for mre came from the scripture described jesus on the crosswhen he asked god to forgive man he stated for they know not whathey dofrom there i was able to expandon somethig i had been doing anyway in regardsto the facthat i found that if a person didnot intend to hurt me i found it did not anger me as much i had always told people the people are the long suffering heroesin their own greek tragedyworking from that i realized that not only was i taking things too personaland that mostdo not even thing about how thier actions would effect my lifei hope this can be of some to you and anybody who readsittherefore if they didnt even think about how it eould effect my lif they did not mean to upset me