Tight to the Heart (love like lead)

Tight to the Heart (love like lead)

Every time I push you away it pulls at my chest because you and I are still bound at the heart, so I push a little harder and your screams are overpowered by that thick wet tearing sound of everything around me falling down, crashing down on top of me.

And I smile at you through clenched teeth, trying hard to not say anything
As I stare at you through blinded eyes, crying blood not tears through everything

It's the heaviest kind of love, like lead holding you back. Holding me down as I'm sinking into the heaviest kind of love, like lead holding me back. Holding you down as we're sinking and I can't stop falling in.

So I smile at you through clenched teeth. Trying hard to not say anything
While I stare at you through blinded eyes, crying blood not tears through everything

You could fill an ocean with all the tears I've made you cry and I would swim across that sea of tears to cut my throat before your eyes. So you could see that I don't want to look at everything I've done to you and everything you mean to me.

And I smile at you through clenched teeth. Trying hard to not say anything
As I stare at you through blinded eyes, crying blood not tears through everything

When this little ring of depression that I wear around my neck starts choking me and i cant breathe, I'll hold my breath because I'm so selfish and insecure that when one person stands between us I can't see you anymore.

You can't see me anymore