Written about a time when I was very depressed.Not the whole story...hasn't ended yet. |
no one will ever truly know
the deep recession of my soul, where my fears live and grow like a vortex or black hole. i, alone, go back in my mind to when the vortex opened that day. my heart broke and my soul almost died because my babies were taken away i felt, as i spiraled out of control, that i would go totally insane. my world was suddenly unlevel and i was suffiocating in my pain. i have found there is no rhyme or reason to our trials and tribulations. life keeps on turning with each season leaving us alone to find our explanations. we must continue to live and breathe not letting our sorrow turn to madness. find a hold on something we alone can conceive or we may never return from the darkness. i still hurt and sometimes i weep but i have built a wall of protection. Never again will i love so deep that the loss would cause me dissolution. a part of me was lost, died that day a part that can never be brought back. now i chase those that would love me away before i hurt them with the love i lack. BK (October 31,2000~A day I will never forget) |