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THE PAIN, THE SORROW--OF HOPELESS LOVE I knew it when I looked into his eyes He was perfect for me and I for him But fact is, we could never be Because he and I have no soical hymn It hurts not to know him better Yet I fell like I have his story down Enjoy his company and seeing his face But sadly I have to wear this frown I talk to him everyday to no avail He'll never know because fate chose another Puts me out of the picture for good The pain will never die and wither Probably find another without knowing me My feelings are locked inside for eternity All I can do is smile and nod faking it But all I wish was we were in receptivity The rules say no and no again to my want And never to my one true desire in life He'll never realize my need for him inside He'll get himself some respectful wife Forget in a few years who I was and it won't matter Because I should find myself someone in the days to pass Many need to search for the comfort I'll need to get over But only his is the true I need to get on green grass I pity my own existence in denial of feeling And I truly wish this didn't have to be Wish I had the knowledge to make it work He'll never take notice of sad little me I cry the days I do not have him in my arms And weep the days I do not know his kind But all I know is he can easily go on As for me, I am losing my entire mind Cannot take this sorrow for myself Can't withstand the pain of never having Feels like a bloody wound that won't heal Just because I heaved the sad javelin Into myself is my try to never know the pain But I know that if I can at least see him a bit The pain will subside momentarily, briefly And yet I cannot stand in this awful, inner pit End me now, I cannot go on feeling this way Living a pitiful existence each long, anguishful day I see light at the tunnel's far away end However I could never reach its lenghtly way He stands there waiting for me, but I could never reach him He stands there looking for me, but I could never see him He stands there reaching for me, but I could never touch him He stands there arms open for me, can't ever love him They restrict him from knowing what he'd ever be towards me Maybe he feels the same way to me and want to be with me too Though the fate of it all has made it impossible to know Though I search for the hopeless path to my love so due Won't ever reach the need I have And does it matter to them That I feel pain because I am Forever in a day without him Help me those who made it so If you so bothered to care I anguish in pain all the timely days For I"ll never lay next to what's fair Oh maybe the dreams will be enough for now But the true presence of him next to me So that is teh only thing that will work For I can no longer feel what is gone from me All that is left is the empty pit And maybe I"ll try to reach again Though I already know I can never make it I weep for my thought to abstain If I withdraw the sorrow may take me whole How is it one can be so engulfed by this thing And all I see in my future is loneliness And he's not noticed in visions the abashing I pun my life in front a crowded room All laughing and I see him in the back of this place Talking to another and he looks at me Grin that was there--wiped beyond his face Nightmares haunt my hopeless feeling for And I try to exit the trap within The end tells it to all who know Hopeless love is a life-long toxin -poet Darka |