What is Left

Tears drip down these cheeks of mine
And I have no clue why
I feel love and hatred
All at the same time
Because I have too much pride
I wanna beat the crap out of myself
And out of everyone else
I wanna bash in the face
Of those already bashed in
Just because I feel I can't be helped
I've dug myself a hole so deep
I just keep on falling
I look to revenge above anything else
To keep myself from bawling
I've drowned in rivers
Rivers of tears
I bit into pain
I laughed through fear
My heart feels empty but overflooded
Overburdened and misunderstood
I lay here trying to understand
Just why my world is't so good
My vision is fogged, iced, and clouded
I keep on floating
I can't stay grounded
I plummet to the floor
And slam the door
I'm not sure
But I've done my best
And i think this is all that's left