NEVER FOREVER

NEVER FOREVER

When he placed the ring upon my hand
I thought perhaps he'd understand
That all my love was just for him;
A beautiful life we could begin.

A second wife, I vowed to be
Everything he'd want of me;
And for awhile all was well
Then I sunk into a world of hell.

He began to critize and accuse me
Of telling lies, of trying to be
A woman who would make him change;
Life with him was getting strange.

He began to drink, then come home,
But most nights I was left alone
To wonder where he was and why
But it wouldn't do for me to cry.

Nights I was thrown to the floor,
Kicked and spat on, then out the door
He'd go, to someone else, people said;
How much I wished that I was dead.

He soon threatened to grant my wish,
Gun to my head, a sharp knife swish;
Playing games with my mind -
I needed to leave, but I was blind.

For ten years I endured the pain
It's true, love hurts, again and again;
And even now that it is over, gone,
The pain goes on - and on.

It was never forever, but I didn't know
For I believed that marriage could last
If you just tried hard enough
And could forget the past.

It's been over thirty years and still
I remember that, and always will..
There will never be another love for me
For now I'm finally, finally free!

3/10/03