I wrote this after years of trying to piece together my broken family. |
All this time - shame and sorrow welling up within me Hiding my past - chained to my family’s bondage Is it right, Is it wrong to want to be free? I see their glare and shake my head and silently walk on..... Keep your mouth shut - don’t start trouble The stress begins to shred at my heart Oh, how alone I feel - everthing has doubled I feel the pain and shake my head and silently walk on.... Tears fall down, a secret is kept along the broken path Can’t share the pain, starting to crack at the pressure of the shame Where can I go - who can I talk to - if only I could be free All of this I have suffered just to keep clean the family name Years later - out of the blue - a man steps into my life Full of love and tenderness - my sins He quickly denies With arms outstretched he welcomes me - an end to the cursed knife Finally set free - oh could it be - Jesus my Blessed Redeemer! Tears fall down, a secret is kept along the broken path Can’t share the pain, starting to crack at the pressure of the shame Jesus, my stronghold hold me close - praise you for setting me free All of this I have had to suffer to keep clean the family name. I have come and gone through valleys - bore the marks of the cross Experienced the top of the mountain - enjoyed the peace of the waters Stood by the Lord with all of my strength - suffered many a loss But in the end, faithful and true, my Lord took my heart and bonded it with another. Now here I am, wiser than my youth, a witness to His promises I’ve seen firsthand this curse as it overcame my younger brother I was stung by it’s poison - words were said and now outcasts we became I cling to my husband - he clings to Christ - living on God’s love and grace Tears fall down, back where I was before along the broken path Can’t share the pain, becoming confused - did I overreact to the shame? I know Jesus loves me and my husband the same - I want my family back But will I ever truly be set free from the curse of this family name? |