Emotionally charged poem about anticipating the pain ahead, knowing you can't go back |
Illegalities and Morals Illegalities and morals That stretch across the light The light to keep me burning The last, dying, gasping fight That spread across the years, battling Silences that bridge the gap But when bridges burn by any means How can we turn back? 'Cause the path is closed, the door is shut Behind my sorry head And the smiles I thought I’d own this year Got lost in life instead And the finality of this drained charade Cramps my whole inside My shell was open I could have come out But instead I was forced to hide And turning back to search for hope In a world we slowly kill Would be trying to attempt the impossible task Of spinning while standing still Did you ever see the hurt that spread Across this weary cheek? When time had taken me hostage until The end of the leaving week? Did my eyes ever do their duty And tell you of this thing That’s slowly burning all that’s inside That’s tapering back these wings Well I’m watching you from the back of the class I’m, well, just breathing you, softly, in These dying breaths are my last with you I can grip the power within But it’s all going now, you have to go It’s all over, see ya, I’m off I’m going to fail without you And happiness is your cost?! The trees are blowing in the wind I can hear the silence ring They tell me that I’m staring into nothing And that’s all this could ever bring But there must be more, this can’t be all Forever passed me by This can’t be it, when logic tells me that Beauty prospers in your eye And as I reflect upon how we were Frustration seeps in and weeds out regret And the five magic words that plague the mind How will I ever forget? Cause my hand, it only clutched at air I came back with an empty fist And I wanted to walk beside your dreams But I just couldn’t tell you this And I’m staring past these strong white walls That mimic how you used to be My head’s comfy here in my hands now, thanks And my face you’ll never see Have you ever felt comfort From being in pain? Have you ever felt normal Because you’re going insane And no one can tell me that this is wrong You all can’t stop me yet Cause the momentum is going, I was once inert It’s not the fastest I can get And the future is dim and it feels mundane Though I’m not even there The one time I don’t have empty hands Is staring into your stare It’s like a map to a road to a road to a street I’m lost, but I know where I am Confusion frequents these tired veins Surging through the calm |