confessions, drugs and sexuality |
We spent a night together in our underwear on my friend's friend's couch. We spent the whole night talking and smoking butts-- I was charmed by her impression of Porky Pig saying "duh duh duh dildo." She was part Japanese; had wild brown eyes and Xtra soft, brown skin; very nice 18 yr old tits. She mimed the words to slipknot softly and gracefully as we lay in her bed with Ash. Ash was also 18, pretty, petite, brunette, and just as lovably insane. OH heart!! Two starlets in pajamas each confessing that they were bisexual OH confusion of the heart!! "Ash says you're a keeper." The next day, as i drove home, i thought of dying old men whose dreams never came true. **************************** we spent new year's eve together b/c it was supposed to be her night. i made a collection of empty bottles and set them on the table, emptied out and transparent, and she smoked a pack and a half of marlboro reds. we were silent as we walked into the bedroom holding hands and i started to undress her. her naked teenage breasts smelled like an ashtray and her frightened virgin eyes glistened and at that moment i realized that it was the drug the drug that glistened in her eyes. i think i heard her whimper as i rolled over, leaving her topless on the other side of the bed. ******************************* After that, all she ever did was cry and cut herself. so i stopped returning her phonecalls. the next and last time i saw her, i was with my real girlfriend and she walked up to me, drunk, announcing that she was in rehab and that she finally got laid and came in chunks and it was bomb. she walked off, and, turning the next chapter in the book of my life, i sighed. |