Away From Me

I want to get away from me
so I can save my sanity
because, for now, it’s almost gone
as outside shadows start to grow long.
The hidden box that’s in my mind
holds feelings of another time
when everything was moving still,
rolling down some grassy hill,
until it stopped
the bubble grew and popped
spreading happiness back into the atmosphere
as my expressions became smooth and clear.
My heart line in some blank emotion
when everything stopped in one swift motion
and pushed me off my pedestal
down to the underworld, dark and cruel
where I am still stuck in rot and decay,
passing the time by counting the days,
waiting till noon to break into a run
to try and to claw back up and reach the sun
and I wonder now what I’d have to do
to try and get back to what I once knew
but the happiness I wish for will never really be
because I cannot escape the monster inside of me.