In My Head

Hey! Is this me in here? Am I the only one that has this voice in side that seems to want to drive me crazy? Questioning everything I say and putting thoughts in my head that I know are not thoughts a sane man should be thinking. What if someone was to find out what I am thinking, what would people think of me then? Think of the ramifications.

Is the person inside supposed to be just like the one on the outside? Can anyone tell by just looking at me or am I just being paranoid? I can remember asking myself this when I was a teenager. Is this the real me in here and the outside is just a front and oh God has my whole life been unreal and a lie?

Do we live our entire lives trying to be what we think everyone feels we should be and never living as our real selves? Do we conform to what society expects from us and never get to be the real person inside? If we would live as the person inside would others think us mad or do we only go thru life pretending not to be mad? Are people that we think are mad only being themselves?

Think of it, the asylums full of people that are only being themselves and all the rest of us are walking around trying to be what we think others would like us to be. Does the voice inside always disagree or second-guess just to keep us sharp or is that voice right and we just don’t listen? Are there only questions and no answers? Are you and I the only ones with these thoughts?