Explode

8 months
Of snow white blank papers
Faint scribbles
Promising me favors
To rid my head of you
Who knew
That would be such a arduos thing to do
And that
In the back of my head
Out my window
You sat outside looking in
Posed with the possibility that
I still thrived in you

It's a self destructive dive
Into a pool of gasoline
And I'm living so alive
Because I know your watching me
But I'm warning you a head of time
Because you are burning red hot coals
You've been glowing in my mind
And I know if we touch
We're bound to explode

Blinded by bombards
Of friends
And a shallow breath of regret
Hoping you were there
With your smile
And your lewd thrilling threats
The scenary fell perfectly
You were the last thing to fall
Like the cheesy parting crowd in a movie
And you were the last person i saw
Eyes fixated on me
Red hot glare and all
I just wanted to drop everything
And give into you

It's a self destructive dive
Into a pool of gasoline
And I'm living so alive
Because I know your watching me
But I'm warning you a head of time
Because you are burning red hot coals
You've been glowing in my mind
And I know if we touch
We're bound to explode


Our small talk
Has never been so small
Hello, goodbye, with an intermission of football
And my mind wandered into what would come next
If we slipped into the back room
For one last kiss
But then my past flashed before me like an angry mother's warning
Shaking her finger
And burying her head in her hands
Mourning
her daughters last thought

It's a self destructive dive
Into a pool of gasoline
And I'm living so alive
Because I know your watching me
But I'm warning you a head of time
Because you are burning red hot coals
You've been glowing in my mind
And I know if we touch
We're bound to explode
We're bound to explode

I saw you watching me from the roof
you watched my every move
I have a feeling
I know what you were thinking
Your eyes
Were my proof
You stared
Like the dense tension between us
Created a one way glass
Like your eyes could see me
Look right through me
But my eyes just looked past
And when you walked by me
And said goodbye
Your words transcended your smile
But I knew
All I had to do
Was say the word
To make your presence worthwhile

And you know, I wondered where you went
When you left that night
The party wasnt over
And you were gone
With out a taste, barely a bite
And part of me wanted you to say
"I'll stay"
So I could let the line swim
Because you already caught me
And I had yet to lure you in
But I'm kinda glad you left me
Dangling on that hook
I'm kinda glad you didnt take a bite
Cos I'm kinda missing what you took
Yeah it's a good thing you left
Cos I've exposed enough
And now you can conquer the river
But for the river
Your ride will be tough

Because
I take a self destructive dive
Into a pool of gasoline
Every time I imply
That I still want you to want me
And by showing you I find
I'm being too bold
Cos I know if we touch again
we're going to explode
we're going to explode
we're going to explode