sadness

It sucks
when you feel hopeless not knowing where you life is going, wanting to take your life but not able to. wanting it all to end naturally but the day never seems to come.
It sucks
I am tired of sitting awake all nite, dreaming nightmares and waking to one. I am tired of sitting in school with unethusiastic teachers and mindless students not learning a thing. thinking about the end.
it sucks
knowing this world is not right for you. not sure if it ever was or will be. Being alone wanting company. having company wanting to be alone.
it all sucks and unless you are able to end it all it will suck till the rest of your days.