Afternoon Depression

Release is attained through the chemicals of an amber liquid
Release is found within the workings of a machine

Empty and alone this journey I have chose
Empty and alone the promise of a future unknown

No plans for the present, nothing seems to matter
No hope for the future, only shadows from before

The past is a wound which will not heal, broken open with every thought
The past will not let go, dreams and nightmares are my cinema

Taken for granted the protection the emptiness offered
Taken for granted the life destroyed

Words on the screen are bullshit from my psychotic mind
Words from my twisted mind are images for my messed up world

I fear boredom and mediocrity
I fear stupidity and myself

I am afraid and alone
Surrounded by everyone who should matter
Willing to let it all go for the illusion of a chance, for the ghost of a feeling