Choices of Heart or Mind

The world stands still when my eyes meet his. My heart quickens until it seems it will burst from my chest and fly right into his waiting hand. But, there is another in my life. Another who wants me, loves me. Yet, my heart refuses to give itself to him, for it still mourns the loss of another. The thoughts of my captor carry into my dreams, where I can see his face. I find myself welcoming these thoughts, and it scares me. It has been a long time since our departure, but I find myself still loving him. Why? I cannot say. It is not something my mind can control, but it comes from deep within me, where reason and logic have little say. What should I do? Should I follow my head or my heart? My head says "Let him go and move on; there is another who loves you", but my hearts tells me to follow it right into his waiting arms. I am lost without much hope of finding my way home.