Goodbye, My Heart...goodbye

Goodbye, My Heart, Goodbye

There we sat, side by side
Talking about my leaving
as if it were an ordinary,
Everyday event,
And my throat ached
With the tears
I'd not allow myself to shed.

I tried to tell you why
I had to go
Using all the logical
Yet somehow superfluous words
That exist in the
English language.

I sat there, telling you this,
Knowing that even if I could convince You
It was right,
Never…..
In my heart, convincing myself.

In the end, you seemed to understand,
And agree
It was the only thing we both could do,
And you left me there,
The sound of your voice
Promising....
'Someday…'
Lingering in the still, quiet air.

Sitting there, much later
After you had gone,
My mind, a turmoil of thought,
Still unable to shed the soothing healing tears
feeling as empty as if I had
Never known your love,
Your touch upon my skin,
Your bittersweet kisses upon my mouth,
I wanted to call you back,
To tell you I want you with me Now……
Now,
Not some far off 'Someday'
That may never come.

But I could'nt……
And, finally, the tears began to fall.