ON THE DAY YOU LEFT

ON THE DAY YOU LEFT
On the day you left our lives changed forever. You went your direction and I went mine.
I cried for all the things I said and the things I did,
I wanted nothing more then to take you into my arms and hold you tight.
I wanted to wipe your tears and tell you everything is alright,
but because of foolish pride and stupid thoughts I didn't.
I loved you with all my heart and always will.
Everyday I think of you and the times we had that were good,
I think of the bad too.
I try to forgive myself for the things in my past and hope for better in the future,
I want the love from you.
I try and I pray that things are just a dream and I'll wake up with you safe in my arms.
I know in my heart that it doesn't look like that will ever happen but i still pray.
Honesty thats a word that has hit me hard as does love because I finally know what its supposed to be and I have lost it.
I can finally see that things should have been differant and could have been differant.
I will never forget the first time we touched ,it was like magic we seemed to have a special spark that flowed between us and it grew so fast.
But somewhere along the way that spark got pushed away by the pain and sorrow in both our hearts.
Never have I felt anything like that and I don't think I ever will again.
I know when things were bad they were terrible and when they were good it was heaven.
Sometimes I wish it was heaven because I wouldn't have the pain that still to this day haunts me with every waking moment,with every mention of your name.
I act as though things don't bother me and I act as though things are alright, but deep inside I feel the cold like the grave which I have so many times layed in and asked to be covered over.
But no one will help.
I see you in my dreams like a guardian angel watching over me making me do the right things for me.
If only I could turn back the hands of time and fix all the wronges that have happened,I know I can't I know there is always goin to be those scars to remind you and remind me of what happened.
The scars are there deep in our souls like cuts from the same knife.
If only thats a question I ask myself everyday I still don't know the answers nor do I think I ever will.
Then again life may prove me wronge.
No matter what or whos there or no matter why I'll always be hopeing against hope and wishing against wish that I can show you how much you mean to me.
I will always be here if you need me.
So don't you cry, wipe the tears away and know that things can change.
Not all people are as bad as they seem.
Sometimes in life we all need someone.
ALWAYS AND FOREVER YOURS