Help me breathe...

I decided to write this for me to breath again,
Because holding back this emotional pain,
Could be the disease that might spread out
Entirely to my system and I hate the worse.

From then on, I learned to sigh…
The longest sigh known to mankind,
It was really a relief, though it only lasted a minutes,
But pain was still there, getting stronger as it was.

Depression is a tough emotional pain,
Disappointment, betrayal and humiliation,
Those are the spirits that always visit me,
As if haunting me and stirring my whole being.

I should have been stay calm and stay put,
Because I feel my insanity is about to leave me,
In between confusions two choices are hanging there
Should I stay all my life at Ward or go to Cemetery?

The shadow of my fears keep chasing me, I am afraid,
Where on earth I could find my strength and courage?
Is there anything or anyone lives in this cruel world,
To what or whom be powerful enough to help me breathe?