There is a concealed tension in my mind. The contrast of what to do in order not to hurt my nearest people and the way I think, how I want to act freely, is becoming a natural part of every move I take. Sometimes these tensions need to be released. As this is a trial for me, I try writing to accept this contrast, but also to express the tension. If one day, I have stopped writing, maybe it is because the tension has overcome myself, or it is because I have found a new way to contend it.