That's the truth! I always seem to find ways of putting myself right where there is possibility of exactly that, but somehow usually manage to stay safe and unharmed. Someone greater than me is looking out for me, of that I am certain.
Hey, My heart goes out to you. I can relate. I'm Bipolar also. They diagnosed me as manic-depressive years ago, but it still took years for a diagnosis. I'm doing much better these days, but still have my highs and lows. The combination of Lexapro and Abilify has been the greatest help. I've tried a lot of different medication combos, and I have to say that just adding Abilify has helped me greatly!
My furbabies are everything to me. They're always near. I have two terrier-mix little girls. I wouldn't even want to think of what life would be like without them. They may be dogs, but they're good for hugs, cuddling, and talking to. They've been with me through thick and thin. You're so right, they are definitely perceptive. They know when you need extra attention, and they know when to keep an eye out for you. They are definitely a blessing from God.
If you ever need to talk or just rant, feel free to write me. I hope you're feeling better.
LeJenD, you're not by yourself. I've battled depression in cycles throughout my life so far. I think in some ways, it's hereditary. As an adult, I have become convinced, that my Mom had undiagnosed Bipolar Disorder. When she was feeling "good," she'd take my brother and me to "the big town" to play all day. When she was feeling "bad," I had my hands full counseling her for hours. Who knew that wasn't a teenager's job?
Poetry has become such a balm for my soul. The depression is still there, but it seems to bring some level of relief when I put my feelings down in a poem. Amazingly enough, some of my best poetry has been written when I was depressed. The Lord has graciously given me the gift of poetry.
BTW, dogs are quite perceptive animals. Mine is lying on the floor near me as I write. I think she's a gift from God, too.
Like most people, I didn't get out much in 2021. Besides the pandemic, my mental and physical health didn't allow me to get out and go like I had previously done. My husband and I did go visit one particular friend of ours, however. String (his last name - and he is also a guitar teacher) has been a friend of ours for over 10 years. He watched our girls grow into adults with us. He and my husband like to get together once in a while to play guitar and just let the music calm the week or month worth of stress. I was never taught to play an instrument. In fact, my parents hired someone to teach me to play guitar and after a couple of lessons the woman told my parents to find me a different instrument to learn to play. Out in the country it's hard to find any music teachers, so I just never learned.
But anyway, since I don't contribute by playing an instrument in these jam sessions, String decided long ago that I would sing. Lucky for me, String wants to play mainly country and classic rock songs, so I know most of them anyway.
Growing up, Willie Nelson was the be all - end all. My parents tell people that I was singing Willie songs before I decided to talk. (I'm sure that's just embellishment but I do agree that I've always loved his songs) And I actually grew up in the same hometown that Willie did. Coincidence of course, but a cool one nonetheless.
String also has a love for Willie Nelson music. I suppose it's easy to play acoustically, as we seldom have plugged-in jam sessions. But, when String discovered I have an affinity for Willie last year he found some songs that even Mark liked and suckered me into singing them. (yeah, it took him a while because until very recently, my husband wouldn't listen to country songs) One of the ones he picked for us to play was Blue Eyes Cryin' in the Rain - and we played it every time we got together and still do. The song is special to me and has been since I was a little girl. My grandfather and my Daddy love the song. I danced with both of them through the years to this and other Willie songs. I danced to this with my grandfather after my grandmother passed away, a tribute to my grandmother, who held Blue Eyes Cryin' as one of her favorite songs while she was alive. It's a special song to a lot of special people in my life. I hope you all enjoy it as much as we do.
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