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She sat down at her old wooden desk, pen at the ready. Her thoughts raced. What shall I write today? Tilting her head to the side, a small smile tugged at the corner of her mouth before enveloping her delicate face. The purple ink began to fill the once blank sheet, each stroke a labor of pure joy as the words flowed from her mind, her heart, her very soul.

Lost in a haze of purple she stands alone

My Dreams...

to write of romance and endless love
to love without boundaries
to learn from past mistakes
to laugh with all my heart
to be the woman I am meant to be



I will reach for the stars

Will not give up

Will give all that I have

Dare to dream the impossible dream

For anything in this life is possible

Daughter of Desire

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June 6, 2024 at 4:47pm
June 6, 2024 at 4:47pm
Today is a shit day. Tomorrow will be worse.

My dil lost the baby. We are all sad and in shock. They scheduled surgery for first thing in the morning.

I hate that her entire family is overseas, except for us.

It just sucks.

I know it's way better this way, but I feel like I'm in a fog, trying to figure out what to say, what to do.

Lost in a haze of purple she stands alone
May 2, 2024 at 2:01pm
May 2, 2024 at 2:01pm
Well, here I am, back at my old stomping ground again. How freakin fantastic is that? Pretty damn fantastic if you ask me.

I'm sitting here at work [shhhh, don't tell that I'm playing hookey at my desk in back] and it's FINALLY QUIET.

Road construction began a few weeks ago, but this week, it's been INSANE. Watching the impatient drivers who think my parking lot is their escape route, is pissing me off. I'm not gonna lie. Within five minutes - 300 seconds - I watched at least 30 cars cut through, one almost hitting a pump, another, missing my husband by mere inches since he was trying to move a vehicle so he could pull out of the bay and bring another in.

I almost called the police to get their ticket quota on Monday watching the craziness, but I didn't. Today, hell yes I did! They were so excited about my phone call that they immediately sent me up to the traffic department, where I got the pleasure of leaving a message! *Headbang* Assholes. They must be busy confusing peaceful college protests with rioters. I mean, why else would they not bother to come and prevent people from having an accident or hitting a construction worker? *Whistle*

Now that my venting is out of the way.

*ConfettiV* *Giftg* IT'S MY BIG 17 YEAR WDC ANNIVERSARY *Giftv* *Confettig*

And I get to share this date with....JACE - Sightseeing Hi Jace!

I've been good since "Game of Thrones"   by Gaby ~ Way behind! ended. And what I mean by good is, I started getting

"House of Sensual Prose "   by Purple Princess ready to reopen AND

"Erotic Romance Writing & Review Group"   by Purple Princess open again *Shock*

I know. How freakin fantastic is that?

For all you lovely peeps who sent me goodies and well wishes today, THANK YOU. You all have been so welcoming and wonderful since I returned at the end of March and reminded me what it is about this place that I *Heartv*

I'm off. Gotta go see what other gems lie waiting in my port.

April 24, 2024 at 10:52pm
April 24, 2024 at 10:52pm
I'm Back!

As you can see, it's been a good four years since I've been active here, as iKïyå§ama has pointed out. *Smile*

Other than the weekly check-ins of scoping email, and the newsfeed, I haven't done much writing. Buying a gas station and having the grandbaby take up most of my time.

I came back after an invite from Lyn's a Witchy Woman asking if I was up for joining House Florent for GOT. I've done it a few times and always found it challenging, stressful, rewarding, etc. How could I say no to that? So here I am, writing, reviewing, reconnecting! It's been amazing.

I've realized how much I missed this place and the people. I'm scratching my head wondering how I let this part of me go. This community is the absolute best, and that's not just my opinion. Look around you at the friendships you've made over the years and all the help you've received as we are all on this shared writing journey.

I jumped right in, hit the "Game of Thrones"   by Gaby ~ Way behind! realm running, and haven't slowed down yet.

Being welcomed back by everyone has touched me deeply. It's been a bit overwhelming, but some days I feel like I've never left. How can people I knew four years ago, pick right up where we left off back then so easily? It is heartwarming, and I realize that is the best part of WdC. These relationships, the wonderful people who care about you, give you honest advice about your craft and life, listen to you vent [yes, I'm talking about you Kit ], and always cheer you on.

I've reconnected with so many of you, and I appreciate it. I want you all to know that even if I haven't mentioned you by name.

So here I am, back at WdC, looking forward to no more weekly check-ins. This community gives me a sense of belonging I haven't felt in a long time. For that, I thank you! *Heartv*
December 24, 2020 at 12:39pm
December 24, 2020 at 12:39pm
Prompt: How is covid changing your holiday plans and how do you feel about that?

Blasted piece of shit Covid. God we were so close to making it through 2020 covid free. But of course, that's what I get for thinking.

Now, I know this isn't going to be love conquers all, so great to be married for so long, blah, blah, blah entry. Instead, I am going to rip the husband to shreds since I blame him for infecting the rest of us.

That devoted man that I've been married to for 29 fucking years put indoor Soccer over his families health. Asshole. I have been livid for an entire week now. I had entire rant in my head all planned to lash out on him, but God help me, I haven't let it rip.

I mean fucking seriously. Since when is indoor soccer a necessity during a fucking pandemic? Why was it fucking more important than the people he actually lives with?

On the drive home from urgent care he had the audacity to turn to me and say, "You know what made me think I had it? I lost my sense of smell." To that I hit him as hard I as I could in the arm while he was driving and told him he was an ass. He was already experiencing symptoms for 7 days. Brushing off each one as they came. I even asked if he wanted to go get tested and his response was, "for what?" Fucker!

The only smart thing he did during those 7 days was have me call my parents and cancel our regular Saturday dinner plans. But he had no trouble letting our oldest and his wife come over that weekend while he was coughing and having chills. Who does that?

I am the designated house for Christmas. It was bad enough that my step siblings and their families weren't coming. My mother is battling early onset Alzhiemer's, and these are the moments I am struggling to spend time with her because of this piece of shit pandemic. But nope, another god damned day taken away.

I cannot even pinpoint if I am asymptomatic, or when the date was that I caught this shit virus. Which means trying to postpone Christmas to New Year's Day doesn't seem like a smart idea to me. But the family is all pushing for that. I swear it's like they've all lost their damn minds.

Luckily, we all had pretty mild symptoms. R's symptoms: severe back pain, followed by chills and coughing. Then just as he thinks he's getting better. BAM! Loss of smell. He's still coughing. My oldest had a false negative rapid test, and the results from the regular test came back positive. He had a stuffy nose, chills, cough, fatigue. Then the loss of smell and taste. His wife has pretty much followed all of his symptoms, with the exception of the loss of senses. She still hasn't lost any of those. My youngest has a cough, sore throat and it has wrecked havoc on his stomach. I swear that kid has easily lost ten pounds in a week. Saturday I started noticing symptoms, but swore that I had a sinus infection, which is usually what I get just before the holidays as Michigan works its ass off to try and figure out what kind of weather we shall have from day-to-day.

It started with the sinus issues, and Sunday during dinner I had a few bouts of severe back pain, that went away as quickly as it began. I wondered then if my rapid test was indeed a false negative as well. But the Dr had already told me not to test for at least 5 days after the last test, and only test if I was having symptoms.

Monday I got in line at a drive-thru testing site, which took a fucking hour, where of course I fell asleep while waiting in my damn car.

So no, Christmas I'm not looking forward to you. At least my son and daughter-in-law will be there since we are all Covid positive. Dinner will be just a regular one without all the trimmings. I mean fuck it, why bother, half the family won't be there anyway. And since I cannot smell anything or taste anything for that matter, I see no sense in going out of my way. Besides, I'm working tomorrow. Why? Because my fucking employee freaked out when she learned about my husband having covid and quit. Which leaves me the only dayshift worker. And since my son has covid too, I couldn't have him cover my ass when my uncle is covering his.

I'll miss hanging with the family that day, my mom especially, but this is where we're at. I'd never forgive myself I made her sick with this crap virus.

On a side note, for that person who so brilliantly had to go and make a fake account just to rip on a few of us who put the blame where it belongs in the US, squarely on that piece of shit in the White House and didn't do a god damned thing to try and save the people in the US. I wish you hadn't been such a coward and deleted your account. You certainly had no qualms dishing shit out. No, Trump is no God, nor is he the Devil, but he is a disgusting piece of human garbage. And if you don't like hearing that, too fucking bad. The truth hurts. That man only gives two shits about himself, which he proves every god damned day. So don't go preaching to me about your beliefs. For I am not one to sit down take it when someone is wrong about something so damn serious. Covid is fucking serious. Subjecting us to herd immunity? What a fucking prick. Where has that gotten us? Over 300,000 dead. On his watch. That makes him fucking responsible. Maybe if he'd actually have a heart, he'd care enough to do something about it.

I ramble too much, and I know this is so off the rails. Blame it on Covid. I am! Right now I'm just a miserable bitch and I don't care.
"JAFBG"   by Elisa: Middle Aged Stik

September 2, 2020 at 9:17pm
September 2, 2020 at 9:17pm
Monday was hell. I'm not going to lie about that. Everything went wrong, pretty much.

It's my job to open the gas station 4 days a week. I hardly ever sleep well on Sunday night. Probably because I know how busy I'm going to be for the next 5 days, worried about making ends meet on a new business, trying to figure out where to get products that no one seems to have in stock, etc. Either I forgot to set my alarm, or it went off and I shut it off immediately and went back to sleep.

R, my husband wakes me 6:45. I'm usually up at 5 and out the door by 5:30. I rush out of bed, do my usual routine, minus the coffee and off I go. I heard him moving around, figured he wouldn't be too far behind me heading to work. My money-making time at work is 6-8 am. Losing a full hour of money was a hard pill for me to swallow.

At 7:30, R calls. The first thing he says is I've been in an accident. It's not just the shock that had me shaking most of the day. His voice was so shaken, that it had me shaking as well. He tells me the car is probably totaled. He loved that car. I hated that car, so of course, I feel guilty because I've told him for the last 4 years how much I hate that car. I call and wake our youngest, tell him to be ready to go get his dad. R shows up at work, tells me about the accident, and how if he'd been driving any faster, or hadn't seen the guy blowing the red light he and the car would've been ripped in half. Between his voice on the phone, and the thoughts that race upon hearing that, I just couldn't shake it all day.

R's Accident

I spilled a full bottle of Lemonade on a customer's 10 lottery tickets. *Facepalm* Lucky for me it was a regular and he gave me a pass.

Things just went downhill for the rest of the day. And then, R tells me he's going to his soccer game that night. *Shock2*
Me: Are you out of your damn mind?
R: laughs
Me: You've been in an accident, you've worked your butt off all day, all of the trauma is going to hit you. You're not going.
R: goes back to work.

Well, of course, he went to his game. Seriously I was livid. Tempted to grab onto his leg and see if he could drag me out the door with him. I mean come on, we are 53 and 52. Our bodies do not heal like they used to, and we both have had broken bones that have led to arthritis and other issues that remind us they are there on a daily basis. If he hadn't been in an accident I probably would've smacked him upside the head, but I didn't.

I went to bed while he was gone. Tuesday he comes into work.
Me: You're limping
R: Yea, my knee
Me: How's your back? [he was feeling the accident before he came home from work Monday]
R: Sore
Me: Sigh, I told you not to do it. I told you not to go play soccer, that you'd be feeling everything.
R: I had to go. And I kicked ass!
Me: *Headbang* *Headbang* *Headbang* I give

Manic Monday - The Bangels - 1986

August 7, 2020 at 12:43pm
August 7, 2020 at 12:43pm
Prompt: Lecture time. Write about some harsh truths that people need to accept.

Sigh. What a shit week. Scratch that. What a SHIT YEAR. 2020 can just fuck off already.

I don't even know where to begin at this point. Basically, I'm heartbroken. Furious. Enraged. Fucking pissed off at the enormity of it all.

Let me just tell you that first off, I have dual citizenship [twitter jag offs keep calling me out for living in the US]. US born and raised, and then Lebanese. I have lived in Lebanon back in the early 1990s when they were coming out of civil war. I've seen the destruction that left behind and watched as they worked their assess off to rebuild the city of Beirut again. I have spent nearly every summer since 1992 there. I lived in the heart of Beirut. My husband's soccer team is located in Ashrafieh, which is now obliterated. We spent a lot of time in that suburb of East Beirut. I was there in 2006 when Hezbollah and Israel destroyed the country all over again. What an evacuation story that was.

What happened on Tuesday is mind boggling. I keep trying to wrap my damn head around it, erase the horrifying images from my mind, but I can't. Every day brings new videos, new tales of terror, and the fucking piece of shit government that has robbed, raped, manipulated and ruined what beauty Lebanon has to offer, hasn't done one damn thing. Not. One. They are too busy lining their pockets and neglecting their people.

They get on tv and say they will bring justice for those lost. Really? Hey fuck stick, YOU are the ones to blame. Every god damned last one of them in that government. You knew there were 2750 tons of ammonium nitrate sitting there for 6 fucking years. You knew damn well it was dangerous. What did you do? And do not even try to sell me the bullshit that it was confiscated and awaiting being shipped out. Unless of course you mean confiscated so that Fucking Asshole Nashrallah could build bombs with it. Hezbollah is a terrorist organization. Period. If you cannot acknowledge that. Fuck You. There is no help for you. Every person in that festering feces of an org can rot the fuck in hell.

The corruption is rampant over there. And we are not just talking about 2020, or 2019. This goes way back. My last name is...so therefore I'm entitled to...Fucking Soulless Assholes. Once Hezbollah got into the government, it's been a massive shit stain on the entire government and country as a whole. The civil war ended in 1990. To this day they still do not have 24 hour electricity. Imagine going to the grocery store and carrying everything you bought up flights of stairs to your house, putting the groceries away and your refrigerator is off. Up in the mountain where my house is, and yes, I still have a house there, we are lucky to get electric 12 hours a day. It comes and goes in intervals of 6 hours at a time. You can practically set your watch by it. Not this year. This year they are lucky to get 3 hours of electricity in a 24 hour period. And that's not just up in my mountain. That's Lebanon as a whole. Punishment for protesting I suspect.

When the younger generation took to the streets protesting, the economy was on the brink of collapse. They wanted the corruption to stop and the corrupt officials to step aside. They knew there was a better way. There had to be. Only 3 people stepped down. 3. They tried negotiating, suddenly claiming after 40 years of sporadic electricity, they had the means to provide everyone 24/7 electric. *Shock* *Headbang* How the fuck is it, that they had the means, knew their people were suffering, yet did nothing about it? WTF. Someone please explain this bullshit to me because for the life of me, I cannot figure it out. Do they get off knowing they are making people suffer?

Covid hit. Still they protested. These oppressed people have been taking to the streets for over six months, and the government refuses to step aside.

And now the blast that has killed, hundreds [so many are unaccounted for], injured 5000+, and destroyed half of Beirut happens. Where is the government? No where to be seen. The people, after being shocked to their core are the ones digging through rubble looking for survivors. They are ones cleaning up the debris so people can walk the streets and drive on the roads.

First they claimed it was fireworks. Laughable. Anyone who saw that footage, hell even a toddler could tell you that wasn't fireworks. When that explanation didn't fly, what did they do? They blamed the port authority for storing the explosives. *Facepalm* Just on whose authority was it that the explosives came to be there? Some random dude on the street? Fuckers. Now they've locked those people up. We all know who should be the ones rotting in a cell.

Yesterday, Macron from France arrived. It was heartbreaking watching people begging him to get involved, to help them. Every citizen there knows if money comes in, they will never see it. Macron swore he wasn't there for their government, but for the people. France's help would go to the people to rebuild, to eat, to help them find shelter as more than 300,000 are now homeless. What did the piece of shit excuse for a human being President do today as the 1.5 million ton shipment with food and medical supplies was set to arrive? He denied them entry. He told France they didn't need their help. Are you fucking insane? People are dying. Your food supply has nothing to replenish it since the grain silo at the port was destroyed. Everything is imported. And yet you want to be the world's biggest asshole and not help the very people who put your sorry ass in office? Go straight to hell Michel Aoun. Just who in the fuck do you think you are?

Instead of taking the desperately needed help and saving your people, you've decided you'd rather keep your head up the ass of Iran, and that terrorist Hassan Nasrallah. For fucks sake. Do you have a heart? Obviously not. The me mentality pisses me off to no end. This government is incapable of doing the right thing. They all need to be driven out of office, and out of the fucking country. Every last one of these fuckers. They all knew what was at the port. Did they care? Nope. God forbid they thought of something other than lining their pockets and kissing a terrorists ass.

Also today, the henchmen of Hezbollah were seen donning Red Cross clothing and shifting through the explosion site. Why? What the fuck were they looking for? What are they hiding. The President also decided they didn't want an international investigation. You know why? Because it will be proven that they willingly knew Hezbollah were making bombs. I also suspect that since Israel has been claiming this for years, that they actually bombed the site once it was confirmed that's what was happening there. I can't prove it. But I've lived there long enough, and seen enough as to what goes on over there to have an inkling of how things work over there. Israel has an itchy trigger finger where Hezbollah is concerned, and I don't blame them for that.

I also think the Israeli government are bunch of fucking hypocrites. Bombing the shit out of Palestine and killing Palestinians, bombing the shit out of Lebanon and killing innocents there as well, and suddenly, they want to help? Why now? Did they suddenly find their humanity? Doubtful. Is it possible that they bombed the site, not realizing the scope of what was underground? Hell fucking yes. I call fucking guilt on their quick conscious as to why they are so willing to help.

In a nutshell. If you support or follow a terrorist or terrorist organization, that makes you a shit stain on society. And I've got news for you, the NRA and KKK are included in this. You better fucking believe they are just as bad as Hezbollah.

I think I've ranted enough. I need a good long cry after I get out of work today. It's the only way I know how to decompress.

Rant over

"JAFBG"   by Elisa: Middle Aged Stik
July 9, 2020 at 11:01am
July 9, 2020 at 11:01am
There's plenty of stupid shit flying around. Tell us about the stupidest thing you heard this week.

Ah, SCOTUS, stacked with old men, a few who live by the 'do as I say, not as I do' bullshit. What a bunch of assholes.

Supreme Court Upholds Trump Administration Regulation Letting Employers Opt Out of Birth Control Coverage

Are you fucking kidding me? If you're a man, and don't want to hear me bitch about periods, birth control and whatever idiocy I must squash, here's your chance to RUN.

This just goes to show what hypocrites and how ignorant these men are deciding my god damn fate.

Guess what? I was on birth control pills at 15 years old. Yep, me, a teenage me, with severe periods that never came on schedule. There was no rhyme or reason to them, and I was constantly leaving school, or not going in at all. Not only was I put on the pill to help with the cramps and excessive bleeding, but they also put me on Naproxen just to get through the shitty day. Without the pill, I don't think I would have ever made it through. When I was in high school, 2 tardies equaled an absence, once you were missing 5 days, they started using them to downgrade you as well. Fuck the GPA, fuck the fact that things were out of your damn control.

So many women use birth control for other reasons than preventing pregnancy. How many times does this need to be said? What the actual Fuck people. And letting my employer decide if I get to have my god-given right to medical insurance determined by you? Fuck right off with that shit! I don't give 2 shits about your religion. Whatever happened to separation of church and state? Why is the SCOTUS disregarding that? This is another slap in the face to women everywhere and done by fucking men once again. I swear to God if men had periods, they wouldn't even be able to handle an hour of cramping. Forget changing tampons and sanitary napkins. You can bet they'd be taking birth control to make it a less painful week. Fuckers.

And while I'm at it, this whole jumping on the bandwagon of My Body My Choice because wearing a fucking mask is so cumbersome. Fuck You Too. Where the fuck were you when women deserved the right to choose what happens to their bodies? Oh, I know where you were. Bitchng up a storm about it going against God, calling it murder, siding with men, forgetting that planned parenthood does more than abortions. Look it the Fuck up.

Your stupid COVID-Idiot mentality and pretending to give two shits about your sudden right to choose is as fucked up as your closed-minded feeble little brain.

For all employers out there, keep your religion to yourself. It's none of my damn business. Just like my health is none of your damn business. If you truly think it's okay to thrust your religion upon me, then you obviously need to read your bible again. Hypocritical assholes.

"JAFBG"   by Elisa: Middle Aged Stik

April 11, 2020 at 8:50pm
April 11, 2020 at 8:50pm
I'm bored. I'm home. And I thought WTF. *Rolling**Rolling**Rolling*

Come up with a 'fuck this shit' isolation playlist and share it with us.

Not gonna lie, I've been buying songs all damn day on iTunes. I cannot remember the last time I actually cleaned with my iPod on. Fucking missed the hell out of this activity. No joke.

Once I smashed my Achilles tendon, dancing was out so out of the question. I admit, I still put too much stress on my damn left foot. In my defense. I despise cleaning. It is my least favorite task and the ONLY thing that makes it bearable is music. Loud. Where I am in my own little world and am oblivious to everything else. And hell to the yea, I found that zone today. It was so Worth It!

Back to the downloading while cleaning. I admit it, I went way back to my childhood ~ had to buy some Shaun Cassidy. Nothing like a little . . .

Well, come on everybody
Get down and get with it
Come on everybody
Get down and get with it
Come on everybody
Get down, that's rock'n roll
It's when the smokin'
And the heat
Have got your heart pounding right with the beat
Don't try to fight it
Just get excited
That's rock'n roll

Hey, don't fuckin judge me! I am 100% positive I wasn't the only one into him and the Hardy Boys Mysteries from the 70s. Yes, I am that old.

Then I had to jump to my high school days and hit the 80s. But when Grand Master Flash hit shuffle, damn it was hard to clean and try and remember lyrics and sing them that fast.

The Message
It's like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin' under
Broken glass everywhere
People pissin' on the stairs, you know they just don't care
I can't take the smell, can't take the noise
Got no money to move out, I guess I got no choice
Rats in the front room, roaches in the back
Junkies in the alley with a baseball bat
I tried to get away but I couldn't get far
'Cause a man with a tow truck repossessed my car
Don't push me 'cause I'm close to the edge
I'm trying not to lose my head
It's like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin' under

And damn if this song didn't make me stop and think for a minute. With all of these homebodies and job loss, you know damn well recession is right around the corner when this piece of shit pandemic is over with. We will be back at this kind of insanity. *Headbang* *Headbang*

The list of what I listened to in the course of six hours is long, 60s, 70s, 80s, 90s, and on, and on I went. And I fucking loved it!

Here's just a little sampling of where I was today
Clones Alice Cooper
Sugar Sugar The Archies
My Best Friend's Girl The Cars
And Then He Kissed Me The Crystals
He's a Rebel The Cyrstals
Fire Woman The Cult
Bring Me To Life Evanecence
Nightrain Guns N' Roses
The Floor Johnny Gill
Destroyer The Kinks
A-Yo Lady Gaga
The Monkees too many too name
Here Comes Your Man The Pixies
When I Look in Your Eyes The Romantics
Senorita Shawn Mendes & Camila Cabello
Lazy Eye Silversun Pickups
Jeepster T Rex
You Need to Calm Down Taylor Swift
Brown Eyed Girl Van Morrison
Breathless X

And then The Outfield hit my shuffle and I realized I only had 2 songs from them. So I hit iTunes yet again. And then I got super pissed off. Nothing irks me quite like wanting to buy a damn song only to see that shaded Album Only bullshit! What the actual fuck? Why do they pull this shit? Not fucking cool Apple. Not fucking fair at all.

I did add Talk to Me and My Paradise to my library. It wasn't a total loss.

And wouldn't you fucking know it, when I complained to my 24-year-old kid about how shitty it is that I can't buy the damn song I want, he, of course, tells me to get it off of YouTube. But I hate stealing. I see it as stealing. *RollEyes* I know everyone does it, but I'm not everyone. Besides, it's not like if I ever got a new pc or iPod that shit would transfer over. It never does, which is another thing that pisses me off to no end.

Still COVID-19 free and working the gas station 7 days a week. The Pandemic can go straight to hell. As long as I have my playlists and shuffle, I can escape this hell on earth bullshit.

Need to find that happy place again, grab a Motrin 600, and dance my ass off. Achillies pain be damned.

Think I might get lucky tonight
Let my hair down get a little crazy, yeah
My reflection's doing alright
It don't take nothing to introduce suggestion
Everybody's got one thing on their mind
A set of wheels and a cranked up radio
In this town there might be nowhere to hide
In this town there might be nowhere to go but
On my left, to my right
This is my paradise
You can call it what you like, I know
This is my paradise

Just the way I like it!

Another pissy entry brought to you by: "JAFBG"   by Elisa: Middle Aged Stik


Lost in a haze of purple she stands alone
March 31, 2020 at 12:13pm
March 31, 2020 at 12:13pm
Could I pass this opportunity up? Hell no. Why? Cause I'm bored out of my damn skull, waiting for the Coke delivery that I'm not even sure I can pay for. *Laugh* Yes, I was smart today and brought my laptop to work. *Wink*

Here goes nothing!

Prompt: What kind of deplorable behaviour have you witnessed lately? Tell us all about it!

When this lovely little epidemic started, you could feel the uncertainty in the air like a nasty storm cloud hanging over your head. At least most of us could. You knew it was coming. Couldn't exactly say when, but deep down you just knew it would be surrounding you before too long.

But alas, we have a stable genius in the White House, well apprised of the situation and totally in control. *RollEyes* } Right?

I swear to God I've never loathed anyone in my life the way I loathe this piece of shit. He is human garbage, and if people can't see that by now, I can't help you.

So Michigan is quickly becoming a hot spot. *Shock2* Not. You'd have to live here to see the morons treating it like a joke. The second they announced we had our first case, people lost their damn minds. Which honestly begs the question, did they ever fucking have one to begin with? It's a mystery. No toilet paper, or any paper products really. No hand sanitizer, no cleaning supplies with bleach. Fucking selfish hoarders.

I am not only having to shop for the house, but for the business as well. I thought, okay, stay at home order, things will slow down and I'll get a chance to breathe, right? Fucking fat chance of that. I just run around more, because I can't find the shit that I need. It literally took me ten days to find meat in the store. I mean by the time I get out of work, it's already 5 pm, and since I come in at 5:30 am, it's all just gone.

Week one wasn't so horrible. People filling their tanks, buying cigarettes that hardly sell. All was good. As the numbers crept upward, and then the Governor shut the state down, things go worse.

This nagging, fucking gnawing question is driving me up the fucking wall. Were people always this disgusting? Well, clearly, exhibit A says yes.

What are your options for going out and getting supplies?

Masks *Check*
Gloves *Check*
Finding your humanity *Check*
Not being a dick *Check*

Ah the essentials. Can you guess where we're going with this shit storm?

The gloves damn it! What in the actual fuck is wrong with people? You're scared. Not shit, so am I. I'm a god damned essential employee, on the front lines of every degenerate who comes in to buy crap they don't technically need. I mean, our store carries very few household items. It's all the best junk food money can buy, honestly.

I digress. Do you honestly think for one fucking second that tossing your used, nasty ass gloves on the ground of parking lots is going to make this COVID-19 disappear? For fuck's sake's people. Get a fucking clue.
1 - that's just disgusting
2 - that makes you a nasty ass deplorable - so fuck right off! And when you are done fucking off, fuck off some more.
3 - Didn't your parents ever teach you about right and wrong? Or were you just too busy thinking your shit doesn't stink and you don't have to be a decent human being?

I am busting my ass to maintain a clean environment for myself, my employees and my customers. Driving into work and seeing your fucking gloves all over the parking lot for me to have to clean up makes me want to fucking hurl. I don't know where you've been, what you've been doing, and who you've been doing it with. Then I leave work and have to make multiple stops at stores to keep up my supply, and have to sidestep dirty deplorable gloves at every place I go to. What the fuck people! This isn't freakin rocket science. Get a clue. Grow a fucking brain already!

How disgusting can you be? Well, now we know the answer to that, don't we?

I hate to say it, but people suck.

Pandemic be damned. Nothing shows your true colors quite like an epidemic, the likes of which no one has ever seen. I mean it's YUGE, bigly. No one has ever had to deal with a crisis of this magnitude in the history of the world before. It's amazing. It’s going to disappear. One day, it’s like a miracle, it will disappear. We’re prepared, and we’re doing a great job with it. And it will go away. Just stay calm. It will go away. This is a very contagious virus. It’s incredible. But it’s something that we have tremendous control over. Our country wasn’t built to be shut down. I don’t believe you need 40,000 or 30,000 ventilators. You know, you go into major hospitals sometimes they’ll have two ventilators, and now all of a sudden they’re saying, ‘Can we order 30,000 ventilators? Some of you in the media need to check into what is happening with all the masks.

And before I forget. Fuck Trump!
"JAFBG"   by Elisa: Middle Aged Stik
December 28, 2019 at 10:05pm
December 28, 2019 at 10:05pm
Well here we are at the end of 2019. What a year it's been. I don't even know where to begin honestly. But here goes nothing.

On May 8th, we finally opened the gas station. Only to shut down within an hour because the gas company had marked the pumps wrong. As well as a few other issues they had to work out. On the 9th we had our first full day. This is a totally screwy business. I'm not going to lie about that. We are one of 3 on that corner, competing with 4 others within a mile.

If it wasn't for my son and uncle working the nightshift, I would've shut this place down. I had one employee who I let go because she was just too trusting, and couldn't seem to pick it up well enough. Everything is scanned into the system. It's not rocket science. Anyway, I let her go for doing something she shouldn't have that put herself in danger. So onto employee #2. We trained her, gave her a key to open. Everyone seemed to like her. Her first shift, she never showed to open. I only found out about it when my husband showed up and couldn't get inside. I got to work, opened up and hired employee #3 on the spot. She was a regular customer and only lived 2 blocks away.

At this point, it's almost September, and I'd been working 7 days a week/12 hours a day. Way past the point of exhaustion.

I took my time with this one, trained her well, though she took the register like she'd done it a million times prior. What I didn't know [which the entire neighborhood apparently did] was that she was a drug addict. I had my suspicions, I'm not going to lie. I was desperate too. I needed someone. And she was good and talking down anything negative about herself.

She worked her first weekend and came in on a Wednesday. I was in the garage catching up on my paperwork. Friday night my son closed and I had to open on Saturday morning. My employee claimed her son had a game.

I get to work at 5:30 am, and the door I usually come in was unlocked. I brushed it off, thinking my son forgot to lock it. The cashier area was locked, so that had to be it, right? I unlocked that door, mind you, it's dark inside and I hadn't turned on any lights at this point. But I could see what looked like scratch-off shavings on the counter. Brushed that off too. I went to my desk to get my opening drawer, and recount the cash from the night before and this when I realized I had a really big problem. The night shift count was off. The opening drawer was off. I counted and recounted 5xs and wrote down the denominations of each bill and how many I had.

When I went back to the cashier area, I realized lottery tickets were missing and I was right about the shavings. I got the store ready to open and called the Lottery office the second they opened. They had me pull every scratch-off book we had from the boxes. Out of 12 different games, 10 were tampered with. My employee who seemed so desperate to improve her station in life and help me out, so grateful for finding a job, had robbed me blind right under my nose.

After I learned the extent of the stolen tickets, I called the police and began counting cigarettes to see what else she had stolen. The list was long and expensive. By the time the police arrived, I had a list of items amounting to $2000+.

Every lottery book she stole from had to be pulled and I couldn't sell them. Then the lottery informs me that the only way I can report them as stolen I had to pay for the entire book. The price for all ten lottery books was $5500. I didn't have that kind of money. I didn't have a choice and had to tell them to cash them out. I had 3 days to come up with the money.

That afternoon, employee #3 walked by the station. My husband called out to her and told her to bring the key back. She said she didn't have it on her and would bring it back. I'm still waiting for that to happen.

This set off a lot of texting back and forth. She wanted to come and get her paycheck. I told her no key, no shirts, she wasn't getting paid. My accountant says I have to pay her for the hours she worked. I mean seriously, she ripped me off and I have to pay her? How fucked up is that?

Needless to say, I wrote the check, it's sitting in my drawer. On Monday, the lottery office called again to tell me that stolen tickets had been cashed, but she couldn't tell me where. They also informed me that since it was an inside job, they don't reimburse the money I was out. The only way to recoup my losses is to take her to court. That morning, the employee's cousin bursts into the store asking me why I let her cousin go. I refused to say. But one look at the lottery box, and it's obvious that something had happened. She said she knew it, that she saw her cousin with a slew of scratch-offs. She and her mom have both offered to testify against her. Since the lottery office wouldn't give me additional information, I was able to track down stolen lottery tickets that she actually cashed in my store on her last shift. How freakin ballsy.

This all went down in early October. One week after my employee ripped me off, I called the woman I had fired and asked her if she would like to come back to work. Thankfully, she said yes. I mean, she may be slow on the register, but she never stole from me and showed up when she was supposed to.

We've had the locks changed 3xs through all of this. Every time I think things are going to get better, something else happens. Equipment failures that keep getting added on to what we owe the gas company. As of right now, I won't see a profit on the gas until November 2020. I'm racking up debt like insanity for the store.

I could go on and on about the business, but it exhausts me. *Laugh* On the bright side, I have regular customers whom I adore. Definitely see the best and worst in people. I won't even go into what they do to the public bathroom. *Headbang*

On the publishing front, that fell through. 90% of the book is edited. I have a cover and no publisher. No idea what I will do with it now. I really would like to see my hard work get published, but I would need someone to edit the last 5 chapters. Man, I was so high thinking a pub house was going to take on my book and get it out there, only to get the constant run around. I get it, getting a new company off the ground is hard work, but they totally sucked at communication, and bottom line, they were unprofessional and just didn't seem to give a shit one way or the other.

I went to court on December 11th, and of course, she pleaded not guilty. She actually thinks that because she wasn't working that day it couldn't have been her. She must think I'm stupid. She was the only person aside from family who had a key. We go back to court on January 29th for a pretrial where I get to show all of my evidence to the court. I saved everything.

It's almost 10 pm, which is my bedtime. *Laugh* I don't have to open the station at 6 tomorrow, but my internal clock wakes me every day at 5 am regardless.

Here's to a better, brighter, and hopefully and a prosperous 2020!!

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