I have to make a decision soon about my future and I am deathly afraid. Irrationally afraid. It's not that I don't want to make a decision, it's that I'm afraid I'll make a mistake by taking the decision, which ever one I'll take. I try to focus on the positives of each. I guess I'm somewhat of a pessimist. I'll never admit that to anyone out loud. I am so afraid, and I hate myself for it. I'm afraid because I am starting over and I am so behind. What will people think of me? Why do I care so much about what other people think? I am also afraid that if I don't take this decision, I'll find myself years down the road stuck in the same spot I am now, but far too old to be able to do anything about it. Everything is so overwhelming, and I don't even know where or how or when to ask for help, there are too many things. I am afraid. |
Have you ever had a song that brought back so many old memories? A song that made you so nostalgic that you dropped whatever you were doing and reminisced everything? All of the good, bad, in between memories that you forgot ever existed; you forgot you could ever even remember? Suddenly, you are transported back to a place in your life that you maybe wanted to forget. Or maybe you have grown so much since then, it's not that you wanted to forget, it's just that now you're a different person, making different memories to suddenly remember one September evening five years down the road. It's crazy how much can change in just five years. Who was that person so long ago? Who are you even now? Nostalgia is a funny thing; and so is music. |
Will that work? Maybe, maybe not. We all make mistakes in our lives, it is part of living. Don't worry about what other people think. That can't be part of the equation. Do what is best for you and your life.