Today is the 1 year anniversary of my mom's death. She fought so hard to get past Christmas and she did. 40 minutes after Christmas was over she slipped quietly away from us as I held her hand and watched her go. It hurts so much. I miss her so much. I wasn't finished learning from her. We had so much that was left unsaid. I have her ashes, but haven't been able to bring myself to even look at the box. I've stayed away and haven't really let myself grieve or heal yet. I've been too busy taking care of my dad and sister to give in to all the feelings yet. Maybe someday. |