I sit in my seat nervously, fighting back the urge to sink into my chair. Minutes pass, feeling like years. My heart is pounding heavily, muffling the clock ticking away. By the time my name is called, my chair suddenly morphs into quicksand. I slouch into my seat, refusing to get up. Miserably, I walked up the podium. I know I will have to force myself to speak. My voice shakes like a storm-tossed ship. My knees wobble like waves against the rocks, unsure and unsteady. The silence before speaking stretched like an eternity. I tremble out a few words. “Time for me to go now...i wont say goodbye.” I said, with a quiver in my voice. I force my words out hesitantly. “Look for me in rainbows, way up in the sky. In the morning sunrise, when all the world is new, just look for me and love me, as you know i loved you.” Suddenly, I paused. I struggle to find my voice. I choke on my words, but they come out anyway. “Time for me to leave you, I won't say…” My voice shakes at the word ‘goodbye.’ I clung to the word 'goodbye,' like it was the only thing holding me together, afraid of what would come next. But saying it would make everything real and irreversible. Eventually, I let go. The words slip out of my lips like a quiet surrender. “...goodbye. Look for me in rainbows high up in the sky. In the evening sunset, when all the world is through, just look for me and love me, and I'll be close to you.” |
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