They say the first step is admitting you have a problem. Well my problem is that I am constantly afraid. I am afraid of the way I feel about you. I never felt this way before. I’ve spent years putting up walls, deciding how close people get to my heart, and pushing people away when they get too close. I’m afraid because with you, I didn’t get to decide, no matter how hard I pushed, you shoved. And your love was stronger than my walls. You came crashing into my life, and you turned it upside down. I’m scared because I can’t push you away. I’m scared of the way I love you. I’m scared of the way I need you. |