Journey of Purpose

Today just seems like... I don't know I can't explain it. I feel happy for once. I feel like...a bird? Free? I probably shouldn't even be feeling this way. I have bills and stress, but I am not going to let the devil steal my joy. Everthing is going to be fine. I gotta believe that. Gotta have faith, because just when you think you have it bad, there is always somebody else who is worse off than you. So count your blessigns. I will indeed do that. Everyday. You know what else I've been thinking, I really need to get back in church. I miss it. It's funny how when you get older you drift away from church, but right when somthing goes wrong in your life you call on God. I don't want it to be like that in my life. I will admit it has been like that previously, but I owe him so much and I want to be a better Chrisitan than what I have been.

If I am a better Christian, then God wil bless me with what I need. Not saying that I need to be a better Christian just to get blessed, but I need to be a better Christian for him period. Well I will tell you this, I am trying. I still can't believe that I have actually cut sex from my life. I will admit I really do miss it. But...I think it's for the best. I feel somewhat cleansed. If I just eliminate that factor of my life, then I can focus on other areas of my life that need improvement. Because all sex is to me is a distraction. Don't get me wrong I DO enjoy it BUT it can be a distraction from my goals in life and in what I want to do. So two months and thirteen days going. WHEEWW! It's been hard, but I have managed. I have been tempted, but something in me wouldn't allow it to happen.

Time to move on. You can only go foward in life, so why dwell on the past? I am searching for my soulmate. I know exactly what I want. I want God to send me a...
Tall handsome man
Keeps himself kept up
Intelligent
Spiritual
Goal oriented
God fearing
Funny
Baggage free
Intellectual

MAN!!!!

With me being celibate it give me time to focus on myself and get myself together and start to love myself before I can love someone else. So it looks like I'm on the right path on my journey of purpose!