The Cruelest Honesty

Just because I thought I WAS
Doesn't mean I am
Just because I thought I could
Doesn't mean I can
I close my eyes and try to swallow
but the lump is just to big
I try to go deep within
But my hearts to weak to dig
The dark that sets
I try to fight
But it seems I cannot win
I finally look inside my soul
To see whats deep within
I see myself hurt and cold
Scared
fingers numb
Laying out on the floor
I admit I did feel dumb
I close my eyes and finally see
This thing that's inside me
So I claw out this hallow hole
To love, to live ,to BE