My constant thought process, a good day

My life is a whirlpool of emotions.
All swimming in darkness and light.
My heart is grasped firmly by doubt and certainty.
My body, both sore and strong, sitting calmly in a plastic chair.
I think to myself "today wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be."
I make amends with my lovers and I feel better for forgiving their wrong doings.
"Leon, you treated me like a sex object with no regards to my feelings as a person, but I love you and I forgive you."
"Donald, you ignore me only until you are aroused and I don't appreciate it but I acknowledge your humanity and the fact that you make mistakes. I forgive you."
Every person I walk by, I walk to reach out to and give them a piece of this random happiness.
I want to touch someone's arm to transfer some little spark of joy to their soul in the hopes that I will have made someone's day.
I want to kiss a person who severely hates themselves to show that they are lovable.
I want to show someone God.