A Prayer for Light

Where do I run
Where is the shelter
That can shield me from the tempest that
Has become my life
Running my hands through my hair
Rubbing my eyes with my hands
Trying to push back the tears
Trying to deny the facts
That are much too much

Where has it all gone
The bliss that was ignorance
No turning back from this
No way to escape
Life is so fragile
You know this and yet there is no way to describe
The drenching downpour that comes over your heart
When that moment
When that second comes when it
Is irreversibly thrust into your face
Taht each moment is special
Because they've suddenly been ripped away
Watching a drama that you can't turn off
Watching a movie that is darkly your life
Watching someone you love
Begin to live a half-life

Where is that innocence
Where should I look
To regain some forward momentum
To find some sort of peace
Other than sleep
There are no paths that are steady and true
To finding the answers I seek
It may all be someone else's grand plan
Some deity up in the atmosphere
Who picks and chooses
With an almight plot
Some may take comfort in thinking that
But I don't
I do not
There are no tidy endings to my musings this night
No easy peace
Just the request that in this darkness
We may all find some light...