the boy i once lost

it was about last year when i met him. on the internet( pretty lame right). i was just chatting when about 10 boys IM me i just started clicking away ending them all before the next word hit the screen. then i saw his IM and the daffy duck smiling at me. and i dont know why but i started talking to him, he was cool at first, then he stated asking for me to call.....i did a week later and after tht we talked everyday. i knew at tht moment he was the only person in the world for me and tht i couldnt live without him. i would talk to him from 10pm to 7am non stop it was everthing i ever dreamed my soul mate was a phone call away.


then the day came to meet. as i sat in the park my stomach gagged and turned as i thought what if everything i thought he was, was a lie and he wasnt mister right and it was over tht moment. but when i saw him tall and beautiful i knew he was my world. and so i fell even more inlove if thts even possible. this is gonna sound even more wierd but we spent most of the time in the park bathroom i sat on his lap and we talked and hugged then it happened our first kiss it was magical, beautiful and everything i dreamed for and more.

we spent everyday seeing each other talking and makeing plane of our furture tht included kids a big white house and an undieing love tht would last until the end of time. he was going to be my first.

he moved down the street from me 2months later and i knew it was ment to be i met his parents and he met mine we were inlove perfect for each other in every was he was mine and i was his......................until tht awful day in november when my mom and dad split up and mommy told me tht i would go to live in florida with my dad i cried all night. for him leaving him was going to be the hardest thing i'd ever do. it told him the next day and i didnt exspect him to cry too but he did and we held each other in his room. and next thing i knew we were making love and it was passionate and ment everything i thought it would. i knew i loved him and he loved me. and the next day he was gone like a beautiful dream tht never came true and i was on tht plane and out of his life for ever. tht was last year its january now and i havent talked to him since about december. but we lost contact and it hurts everyday to loose some one who means so much to you. to want some one so bad. but it wasnt ment to be but i keep him in my heart. because to day , tomarrow and even the last day of my life he will always remain my first love