Attempt

I've tried so hard
to rid myself of this disdain
Given up so much
to bury this pain

I spend so much time
trying to hide my hate
Slept away so many hours
not believing in fate

It's so hard to believe
that I will not accomplish
never achieve
The things that I want
the things I need

Bled and scratched
all my guilt
cut and bruised
the plans I've built

wished and prayed for better
to be crushed and let down
hoped and wanted better
only to let myself drown

Thought one thousand dreams
Dreamt a million hopes
getting caught up in my screams
and to never again cope

I've tried so hard
to never relive my past
Given up too many things
to know that good things will never last