Tears of a Hiding Heart

I feel broken inside with these tears I cry
At a loss for words my pen still writes.
A turmoil unseen with pain unclear
I'm not sure whats wrong, I just know its here.
Tears of blood run down my face
With each drop comes throbs of pain.
I thought you left, but running you came
Consuming me in your darkest dream.
I run and I hide, but you find me each time
Pulling me down, drowning me in your cloud
I scream and writhe-my heart in agony.
But worse comes yet the apathy
For those I once held close to my heart
For dreams and hope-for life itself.
I know I must fight, get out of this lake
But, its so hard, the torments so great.
I feel lost and alone-an unearthly spirit-
I want to hold on, but you grab me and sneer
At my weakness. My fall is near, and slowly
I lose my hold, my fingers slipping, life is so cold.
Nonexistant I was, a nonexistant I am-
I want to hold on, but fear no longer I can.
So I am breathing the last of my haunting song-
But I must admit it feels incomplete, still undone.