Lost Gleam Of Self-Esteem

When at first we met, I was drawn to
your high self-esteem.
So many goals, you were aiming high
and you dared to dream.

Thanks to me, you've been awakened
to your present state.
Your weakened mind is unable to depict any emotion,
be it love or hate?

I began mocking you, the frustration was so unbearable
you broke down and became depressed
Now, you couldn't even last a week without me
your mind in a state of utter distress.

Can you even look back to when you were a portrayer
of clean living and good health?
You used to think up such nonsense
you were just deluding yourself.

Sometimes I think maybe I've gone too far
when I watch you
during my little episodes
of self-denial.

I'm just growing bored as I watch you
sitting there calming rocking,
with your blank stare
and ungleaming smile.