personal spiritual development--I am an unlicensed quantum mechanic |
DEVOLVING THEOLOGY My brain is soft, silken tofu more malleable than my heart. It constructs rough altars to rogue gods; forces that cannot love you as you love them; it rips apart theologies, an anarchic divining rod. When I was six, spinning in the dew, arms splayed, a whirling dervish jump-start to limbic prayer, I spoke to God. He said, "I'll give you a clue. You will know Me in poetry and art, but you must find Me alone, or it's fraud." I have since traveled far beyond my means. I am a quantum dabbler, it is true, syncretic, gnostic, heretic by parts. My soles slip in the footprints where others have trod. I shake a cosmic cocktail, an ethneogenic brew, one-half cradle Catholic, spritz of Wicca, a garnish of Descartes, that numbs the sting should you suggest my philosophy's flawed. I care now, not for answers, holy mysteries will do. A-whirl in quiet contemplation to storm the ramparts of the brain, this frontal lobe so frangible and odd, an ecstatic neural nodule hot-wired with God glue. I sit in silence and stillness to start the unmasking of the world the angels laud. All living waters flow to the same stream. Written for: "SLAM!" |