Urges consume me

The emptiness that tears at my heart
Consumes me more than my faith
Eating away every last glimmer of hope
Eroding my sanity leaving anger and hate

Trying to understand weaknesses I'm plagued with
My conscious finding it harder to tolerate
Two different thoughts fighting for control
Both promise things will complicate

The ease of my life is wading through white waters
Guarding my feelings in the storm of emotions
Never getting close enough for them to understand
Mind, body, and soul in desperate need of purification